At midnight tonight our telephone/Internet/cable service will be terminated. The $166 a month we've been spending on it will be much better spent on essentials. Yes, I am implying here that these three electronic luxuries are just that, luxuries. They are certainly not essentials, although these days its easy for us to become attached to them, even dependent on them, until they feel much more inportant than they are. The telephone sevice has already been replaced by a refurbished cell phone and bare bones basic monthly service. Funny thing, it has yet to ring.
As I contemplate only getting online once or twice a week at the community clubhouse, I again find myself pondering the fate of this blog. I really enjoy blogging, but cyberspace is more and more such an odd place. Things in the online world are just not as real as they are in the flesh. While I've said before that so many good things have come of my journey through Internet groups and blogs, I've noticed some disturbing things too. It's too easy to become dependent on the feedback of others for validation that I'm a good mom, a good home maker, a good person whose writings are worth reading, whose thoughts are worth sharing, or whose feelings are valid. It's too easy in cyberspace to just hit delete or block or unfriend, and do just that. There's not much invested (most of the time) so there's not much to lose. I think too much of the time we forget that there is a real live flesh and blood person with needs and feelings on the other end of those emails, IM's or comments. And after all, in then end, we don't really know that person (most of the time) so we think we're not really losing anything when we move on. Sad, isn't it?
That all being said, I honestly have no idea when I'll post again or if I'll continue this blog publicly. I am looking to God for guidance on this, and waiting to see how our lives will evolve and change as we retreat from the electronic age for a while.
Wishing you all well.
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