Trusting Him, Day by Day

I realized today that I've been angry and resentful over a lot of things for a long time. The main problem is, they are things over which I have little or no control. So my only choice, literally is to trust God to handle it all. I can't "fix" our marriage, but God can. I can't "fix" the problem of some dental issues I have that could cost thousands of dollars to correct. But God can. I can't "fix" debts and old bills that need to be satisfied. But God can. All I can do is do the best I'm able with the resources he's given me, and trust Him to take care of the rest.

As I write this, I'm confident He has the solutions to these and other much smaller matters, already in motion. I don't have to make it happen. I just have to trust and listen, and follow him day by day.

This song helps me to remember this, when I forget it, which is often. I hope you enjoy it.

When "The Love Dare" Isn't Enough

Today I received a return on a labor of love, tenfold. Seven years ago when I first returned to God and went to church, my oldest daughter rebelled at many of the concepts, which were all new to her. Perhaps the most difficult thing about the Christian faith for her was total surrender to God, the concept of leaving things up to Him in matters over which we have no control. She comes by that diffculty honestly. I struggle with the same thing.

Those of you who used to read here when I was blogging more regularly are familiar with the marital issues my husband and I have struggled with the entire 23 years of our marriage. I won't rehash them all here because that's not really what this post it all about. It's about trusting God, when the person you should trust and love the most gives you yet another reason not to do either.

In talking about the situation with my oldest daughter today, I received a wonderful gift. She spoke in faith, and love of Jesus and gave me an answer from Him I'd been seeking, but not seeing for a while now. The answer that, I have no control of his behavior, not am I responsible for it. The answer that, in spite of his interference, my home can be a wonderful haven and my family can be content and happy. The answer that I don't have to follow any specific formula and wait to live until my husband finally "gets it".

The answer was so simple. All I have to do is trust God, follow Him in my own heart, and care for my children as He would have me do. That's it, that's all. He, God will take care of the rest.

There are no solutions for some problems. At least not, human solutions. Some problems seem overwhelming and set step by step programs do not apply. But God has a solution for everything, if we are willing to step aside and let Him take control. He is in control anyway, we kid ourselves into thinking we are, but that's really not true.

But when we step back and let Him take over, His will is done, and our hearts are filled with contentment and we are blessed.