I just renewed my domain name for this blog the other day. I've now had this same blog going since 2008. In about a month it will be my fourth anniversary writing here. As I have grown and changed, this blog has too. It's interesting to go back and read over posts from different times in our lives. There is definitely a great record of our ups and downs here. I get mixed feelings when I read back over it all. In some ways I feel good, because I can see areas in my life where I have really grown and changed, and those changes are evident in how I felt about things before and my perspective now. Other times I read over old posts and I feel sad, because I can see the rapid passing of time and no matter how hard I try I just can't seem to find a place of total peace.
Right now, I am at a good place in many ways. My doll business is doing well, school with the kids is going well, and everyone is healthy and happy. I have some personal goals for myself and the kids for this year and we are already well on our way to achieving them. I have future plans in place, and I've taken positive steps in that direction already as well.
This tangible record of years in our lives has been helpful in many practical ways. I have been able to clearly see many repetitive patterns and cycles in our lives and my own patterns of mood and energy. This has really helped me to keep us on a even keel. I can now recognize things like, "Okay this is just PMS hormones, I'm not really hating life." or "The kids are unruly because the weather is dark and gloomy and they're bored and restless." I guess I was pretty short-sighted before.
On the other side of that, some of the patterns we repeat over and over remind me of bad TV reruns, and I would change the channel in a heartbeat if I had some giant, cosmic clicker. But of course, I don't. So all I can do to make positive changes is to determine the desired end result, and then set small, attainable goals that will ultimately get me where I want to go.
And that's what 2012 is all about for me. Not the end of the world, but the beginning.
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A giant clicker - that would be awesome.
Glad to hear that you are doing well. I hope 2012 continues that way!
I'm glad you are still here and doing well. I started blogging in 2006 and recently tripped the 10,000 views clicker. Wow...10,000 times somebody clicked over to my place. I hope what they find is insightful and encouraging, but when I read back through, I find a lot of whiny baby posts! But...we must continue writing and don't think I haven't forgotten about your book. I still wonder what happened!
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